Thursday, December 08, 2005

Thanks people who posted things on the last one, it makes me feel good. As well, I think I'm going to take steps into going vegan so I'm hoping it will work out. Hope for a snow day. Now to the meat.

Have you ever wanted to be able to know what everybody wants. It seems to me like it would take a lot of guesswork out of our daily lives. Someone can be nice to you and its hard to tell whether they want to be friends or they are trying to get on your good side so you can give them anwsers. Live would be much easier to win at if it were like this. However that takes the thrill out of guessing someone right and the luck/skill out of life so its probably good. Its kind of like the game of Life where you have all random stuff with some major choices already given by you. You roll and go where it takes you while making the needed choices along the way. And everybody knows, you can't cheat at life.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Hi all again. Now I have a question for you, have you ever been mad at someone for something you aren't even sure they did. There is someone who I think did something I should be mad about, but I don't know. All I know is I'm mad and that you should all go to my other blog for a laugh. Its link is in my profile and its pathetic, which is kind of coincidental because I happen to be pathetic as well. I really can't stand my life, I've missed out on so much so far and others have reaped in benefits that I had never known the existance of. I wish I was the person, ok with everything, always happy, with high self esteem, and able to tallk to anything at any point in time. It sounds pathetic but I'm not trying to be popular or anything, I'd rather be myself only more open, happier, and more respected as a person, rather than the uncool kid with the big head over in the corner. Life would be so much easier if I had more self esteem and actually said what I think instead of sitting wordless in the corner. Unfortunately if I say something, people take it wrong and think I'm even less cool. I make people laugh over the stupidest things but that doesn't help, no one would respect me for being a stupid failing comedian, I'd just rather have the ability to make my feelings known without worrying that the world will crash down upon me. And GG, sorry for insulting you.

Friday, December 02, 2005

Hi everyone and welcome to the sitcom that is my life. Too bad nothing is happening. I have no clue what anyone thinks, what they are doing, why they are doing it, or anything. I'd like to have a decent ideal of what is going on in my life but I'm always a spectator and never a driver. Just once I'd like to bump off a driver and take the wheel for a couple laps in control, but its uselsess, there is no reason that anyone would keep me in the loop. I can never tell anything and its ticking me off, I don't know wheter people say what they mean, act how they want, or even know what they say. People are so hard to figure out, once you understand a little, they throw you a curve ball and put you back to square one. I've had people I've marked off as smart failing, people I thought weren't especially smart are now past me, quiet people are talking. Its enough to drive a person nuts, and I never change. Throughout my entire life, my personality never changed one bit to my knowledge that was substantial, it feels like everyone is passing me up and I'll be left behind without anyone on even level. Its terrible when I think ahead and see myself as a social outcast, not cool enough to be uncool, too depressed to care, only thing I'll be living for is making money and not dying. Even that is becoming hard. We're screwing up our planet and its getting harder to just get by. Thinking of how we changed our planet causes me great sorrow at the evils we have done to it. Some ways, we deserve to be bumped off the planet, there is no need for us to screw up other planets. See, when I think, I go off on tangents, and use a lot of useless commas.