I don't have anything to post.

Run For The Hills!!!

Yes I'm actually posting
I know its incredible
no I will not give you an autograph
sure you can tatoo my name on your... well, no one is gonna be able to see it there
No really I don't want to be president

You know what, I can't stand this school we are at, I go in happy and leave depressed and tired.
And some of the people, I got probably 10 wierd looks and I know at least one person looked over by me and laughed.
I'm working on my mile times, lets just say I'll have a lot of improvement
I've been listening to a band named Cynic, they made 1 album but its been remastered and you should listen to a little of it.

I can't stand the routine I'm going into
Its insane and its a wonder i'm not
I'm sitting next to one of my best friends from 2nd grade, interesting to talk to him
He keeps asking if I'm depressed, wonder why

I've realized how few people outside of my main group actually want to talk to me
If you want to see something scary go to Landover Baptist, I heard it was a fake website and I hope so, its 18 plus but I went there from a link and didn't know that, they have people killing 1000s of people who don't convert with gas, and hooking up electrodes, and whipping people with bibles. Its like a fetish site for christian fundamentalists only with some funny things like the "Your Child Might be a goth" where one of the telltale signs is eating Count Chocula, interest in sex, hanging out with friends without adults, expressing interest in "Cult religions" like Buddhism... need I say more?
First Three apply to me, I won't deny it and you probably don't care, guess I'm a Goth along with the entire teenage population who aren't christian fundamentialists or Jihad members or something like and even then I'm not sure

I can't believe how much i've actually changed
I've never looked at anything like that
I've never been so wierd
I've never wished so much I could know what to do and say,
Everytime I do something, I worry about repercussions
I'm too worryed about what people think of me and not worried of what I think of myself
And I'm still feeling very depressed and need to work on my self esteem
but whatever

This is not a post about my life or anything, this is dedicated to an awesome movie I just had the pleasure of viewing. I'm talking about The Wall. It has everything a movie needs: sex, drugs, rock and roll, more drugs, violence, blood, and trippy cartoon interludes. And the best part is it taught me a lot when watching it. It showed the evils of war, of violence, of drugs. There is relatively no plot whatsoever but it doesn't matter, the message stands out. Throughout you can see riots, people dying, people being brainwashed and it has the perfect soundtrack as well. So in conclusion if you like any of the stuff I have listed above or are extremely anti-war or just want to see a great movie, rent it and watch it.

Here's the deal. For not changing at all, my life is getting more hectic and complicated. Before I never had to worry about such things as finals and other things that don't come up until later. But now I do and I'm feeling pretty depressed about it. All my classes hinging on a good grade on the evilest test we've ever had. I posted 2 earlier but deleted them because I don't want my life to be a completely open book. I'm suffering from growing up too fast, my spirit wishes we were back in 3rd grade where nothing mattered but having fun. Now its just changed. I can't do anything about it and have too low self esteem to go have fun because I worry what other people will think. But now I've realized, I don't give a damn about what other people think, I'm going to do what I want including probably looking like a complete idiot but at least it will be fun, of course you will probably see no change in me so you'll know I failed at another thing which will be just great for my confidence but whatever.